Let’s be honest – we all have things that we think would be cool to try, but aren’t motivated or disciplined enough to actually do them. Learn another language, cook a homemade dinner every night, teach yourself how to code. I call these things “want to want to”s. Here are three of my WTWTs:
Gardening – My mom has always been really into her flower gardens. It’s one of the few things she’s still able to keep up with (to a degree) even after her dementia diagnosis. I wish I had made an effort to learn about gardening from her when we were both younger. Also, it would be awesome to grow my own food! I’m fascinated by the process, and I really enjoy hearing about my friends’ experiences with gardening. When it comes down to it, though, I’ve found that I’m not willing to put in the work. I tell myself I’m just being practical – I have no guarantees that I’ll have the energy to keep up with it throughout the year – and that’s true! But also, I don’t like sweating or digging or trying to plan for things that I have no real understanding of, haha. By the way, Sarah’s blog post today got me thinking about this one. Her pictures are so pretty & inspiring!
Dye my hair a crazy color – I’ve wanted to do this since I was a teenager, but back then I had a job where I couldn’t dye my hair any unnatural colors. After I quit Chick-fil-A, the only thing holding me back was the maintenance that’s involved with keeping vivid colorful hair. That still dissuades me, and I also hate appointments of any kind (Crohn’s-related anxieties ftw). I actually only get my hair cut once a year because of that. The idea of having to re-dye it every six weeks is like a nightmare for me! But if I could dye my hair tomorrow and never have to worry about it fading or awkwardly growing out, I’d choose blue. Yes, blue! I think blue hair is so fun.
Yoga – I’m suuuper inflexible (and, let’s be real, pretty weak). I know that yoga would remedy both of those things, but I get so overwhelmed and/or discouraged when I try it and have trouble with basic poses! Honestly, the only thing holding me back from this one is straight-up fear of failure.
Who knows if I’ll ever get over the mental roadblocks keeping me from trying these things, but writing about them has definitely made me want to want to try! Maybe one day. For now, though.. let’s commiserate. What are your WTWTs?