Disappointed

Still feeling bleh today. The pain is pretty mild compared to my last flare-up, but it is certainly discouraging. I’ve been feeling so great lately.. so it’s disappointing to feel like I’ve taken a step back health-wise.

I keep reminding myself that this is just part of the healing process. My current situation is not ongoing – it will pass. And I will keep making progress. Because I’m focused! I’m capable! I respect the process – the ups AND the downs (as hard as that is sometimes).

I don’t feel like blogging right now. And anyway, my YOGACAMP instagram post for today already says everything pretty well:

I still have a headache plus the addition of a bunch more Crohn's-related inflammation symptoms today, so I'm taking it easy again.. but I wanted to keep up with #yogacamp so I did what I could of day 19. I made it 2/3 of the way through the video before I suddenly burst into tears during warrior 1. Totally surprised myself. I didn't realize the depth of my disappointment over being sick in bed again until that moment. Ive been feeling so GREAT lately and then BAM – back in pain, back stuck in bed. At least the crying was cathartic. I do feel better emotionally. ha. 🌥 Anyway, the mantra for day 18 is "I respect." I respect the emotions I'm experiencing and allow myself to feel them fully. I respect this healing process – the ups and the downs. I respect my body as I do my best to take care of it. I respect the cues that my body is giving me to rest. and I rest.

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I’m tired. I’m gonna take a bath, eat some dinner, add some mood-boosting oils to my diffuser, and go to sleep. Joy comes in the morning! Let’s rest in that.

Goodnight, friends.

4 thoughts on “Disappointed

  1. Oh man this post nearly put me in tears. I could feel the same kind of sadness – my mom’s been going through some health stuff too (nothing life threatening just some annoying numbness that’s caused her to slow down a bit) – but you’re so right when you say “joy comes in the morning”. God, I pray joy comes in the morning for Kelli and that she feels so much better!

    (+ you’re awesome in addition to capable and focused 🙂

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  2. I get inflammation issues from Celiacs which is really a lot easier to deal with than Crohn’s Just give yourself as much grace as you can It really is hard to function when everything hurts. It really is difficult to find any motivation when all you want to do is rest. You don’t need to feel disappointed in yourself because you get credit for trying and for where your heart is and it seems like you have those things down.

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  3. I didn’t realize that headaches were a part of Crohns. Thanks for posting that, it’s good to help educate people on things like this.

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