Still feeling bleh today. The pain is pretty mild compared to my last flare-up, but it is certainly discouraging. I’ve been feeling so great lately.. so it’s disappointing to feel like I’ve taken a step back health-wise.
I keep reminding myself that this is just part of the healing process. My current situation is not ongoing – it will pass. And I will keep making progress. Because I’m focused! I’m capable! I respect the process – the ups AND the downs (as hard as that is sometimes).
I don’t feel like blogging right now. And anyway, my YOGACAMP instagram post for today already says everything pretty well:
I still have a headache plus the addition of a bunch more Crohn's-related inflammation symptoms today, so I'm taking it easy again.. but I wanted to keep up with #yogacamp so I did what I could of day 19. I made it 2/3 of the way through the video before I suddenly burst into tears during warrior 1. Totally surprised myself. I didn't realize the depth of my disappointment over being sick in bed again until that moment. Ive been feeling so GREAT lately and then BAM – back in pain, back stuck in bed. At least the crying was cathartic. I do feel better emotionally. ha. 🌥 Anyway, the mantra for day 18 is "I respect." I respect the emotions I'm experiencing and allow myself to feel them fully. I respect this healing process – the ups and the downs. I respect my body as I do my best to take care of it. I respect the cues that my body is giving me to rest. and I rest.
I’m tired. I’m gonna take a bath, eat some dinner, add some mood-boosting oils to my diffuser, and go to sleep. Joy comes in the morning! Let’s rest in that.