..Planning for our anniversary trip in a couple weeks. We’re going to Disney World! I’m excited (and you know Josh is excited). I haven’t been to Disney World since I was too young to appreciate the experience, so I’m looking forward to experiencing it as an adult. I’m a little nervous about the traveling and my health holding up, but I have faith that it’s all going to work out, and I think we’re going to have a blast.
..Feeling blue. Still. This morning, I had a long conversation with my dad about Mom – how she’s progressing, how he’s handling it, what the future might hold, how much this situation straight-up sucks. It was a tough conversation. As you can probably imagine, watching the love of his life slowly fade away to this disease is really tough on my dad. I get choked up all the time thinking about the whole situation, but especially when I try to imagine what my dad is going through. If you pray, please keep my dad in your prayers.
..Prioritizing fun! or at least, I’m trying to. There are a lot of sad and hard situations in my life right now. I’ve been seeing a counselor for about a month (oh hi, casual mention of a big detail, nice to see you here in the middle of this sentence) and she suggested that I start prioritizing light-hearted fun (in an attempt to bring some balance in my life). It feels strange, almost selfish.. I feel like I shouldn’t be seeking out “fun” when my parents are struggling, and my parents don’t have the option to ignore what’s happening, and my heart is heavy. But here’s the thing – the fact that I’m struggling with so much sadness is why I need to seek out fun. I need to create some kind of balance in my life. I’m hoping that our upcoming trip to Disney World will be a lot of fun and I can move forward with a lighter heart as I deal with heavy situations. But, I don’t know.. we’ll see how it goes.
..Thankful for my dad, hard but truthful conversations, that my mom is happy despite the dementia, flourless zucchini chocolate muffins (thanks to my Mom-in-law!), nap time snuggles with Josh, our newly-cleaned & organized garage (thanks, Josh!), wise counsel, having someone to talk to, and sleep.
What are you planning, feeling, prioritizing, and/or thankful for this week?