My favorite things this week:
• Winter accessories. Hats, scarves, gloves, overcoats – it’s about that time!
• Tessa Violet’s acoustic version of On My Own – I love this song, and I think this video she made for the acoustic version is so freaking cool. (And while we’re talking about Tessa, all of her vlogmas videos so far have been SO thoughtful and thought-provoking – definitely worth checking those out).
• Santa Paws:
• Cassie’s thoughts about seasonal depression really resonated with me. “I think the most infuriating thing about SAD (and I assume all depression) is that you’re aware of what’s happening. You can see yourself spiraling. It’s like you can step outside of your body, look down, and notice what’s going on, but you’re powerless to stop it.”
#RealTalk: who struggles with SAD (cheesiest acronym ever)? November and December have been a dark (literally and metaphorically) time for me as long as I can remember. To be honest, I’m struggling right now. ⠀ •⠀ I think the most infuriating thing about SAD (and I assume all depression) is that you’re aware of what’s happening. You can see yourself spiraling. It’s like you can step outside of your body, look down, and notice what’s going on, but you’re powerless to stop it. That’s why it’s so frustrating when people say things like, “Just choose to be happy.” It’s not a choice. It isn’t even on the list of options. Trust me, if it were, I would.⠀ •⠀ For me, my SAD manifests itself in apathy. I don’t take showers. I don’t balance my checkbook. I don’t make dinner (I just eat cookies). I don’t drink water. I don’t put on clean socks. I don’t proofread my posts (so many typos). I just sit and wait for Spring to come.⠀ •⠀ After a while, you get in this deep hole of apathy, and it feels like you might not ever be able to be excited or passionate about anything ever again. It’s a particular struggle for me during this time of year, because I love Christmas. But finding the motivation to get excited for it seems impossible.⠀ •⠀ Depression seems to amplify the negativity in your life. Bumps in the road suddenly feel like unscalable mountains. Every negative comment I get on a recipe feels like a personal assault. I broke my iPhone the other day, and I burst into tears. Juniper kicks me or hits me or screams at me (as 2 1/2 year olds sometimes do), and I just want to run and hide in the corner. It’s like someone came and stole all the tools I had for coping with life’s hiccups. ⠀ •⠀ I’m lucky that my depression is seasonal. When the days start getting longer in the Spring, I notice an improvement (and yes, I have a light therapy box—it helps). But for a lot of people, I know this struggle is 24/7/365. ⠀ •⠀ I’m not sure there is much of a point to this post other than to talk about something I don’t think a lot of people talk about. Depression (situational, seasonal, chronic, whatever) is not something to be ashamed of. We should talk about it. So I’m talking about it.
• Homecoming podcast – I started listening to this serialized fiction podcast this week, and it’s super interesting! It’s a psychological thriller starring Catherine Keener, David Schwimmer, and Oscar Isaac. I’m hooked! I kind of wish that I hadn’t discovered it until the whole series was up, though, because now I have to wait a week between episodes instead of being able to binge through in one day haha.
What are your favorite things this week?